Where are my emotional eaters at??????
Ok, no need to be shy. I’m one of them. In fact, I very often have a seriously bad relationship with food. Some of this I owe to my upbringing, some to the American culture and diet, and some to my previous addiction to smoking cigarettes as a means of coping. Oh yes, I’m putting it all out here!
Now please, don’t get me wrong. I do not blame my family for my eating issues. I’m not placing blame at all, in fact I take full accountability for my own actions. I will say though that how I was brought up around food adds to the issue. We ate for celebration of everything. Perhaps it is cultural being of Italian decent. Maybe it is just the way we as Americans are but it is how I remember growing up. I remember my biological mother forcing me to sit at the table until all of the food on my plate was gone. Sadly, I have some very bad memories of that. I remember being told not to waste food. Again, not placing blame but it is the reality of what went on. I also remember and still do LOVE food! I enjoy the taste, savor each and every bite, and I take my time! I have had a bad habit of overeating at meals. You know, that feeling where your stomach literally feels like it will explode? Ugh! I don’t know what possesses me to do that! Yet, I do know. I know exactly what it is about.
I stuff my emotions with food. I used to be a smoker. That was my go to coping skill. If I was stressed, I smoked! If I was celebrating, I smoked! If I was sad, I smoked! I smoked. I smoked. I smoked. I hate that I smoked but in a way it helped me to not be an emotional eater. Since I quit, I ate more. If I am stressed, I eat. If I am sad, I eat. If I am happy, I eat. If I have done well with something I tend to reward myself with food. I eat. Oh boy, can I eat! It’s almost like an addiction. It is something that I continue to work on and some weeks are better than others. Some months I don’t even bother to engage in this way of coping.
So, what can you do to change this? What do I do to change this? I work on this every day. I try to be very mindful of my eating. I work very hard at building myself up in healthier ways. I reward myself differently. I work on this all the time because bad ingrained habits are HARD to break. See this is why I am so happy that I chose Beachbody or maybe it chose me. I have learned so much about myself and what being healthy means. I have learned how to fuel my body with food and eat for fuel verses stuffing my emotions. It hasn’t been an easy road for me but I work on it all the time. I’m not perfect either. I slip up and gorge out! I have some foods that are my weakness so I keep them out of the house! My will power is not that strong! I need redirection and positive self talk. It works for me. It could work for you too!
Is this something you can relate to? Maybe I can help YOU too!